God's plan.

"Everything happens for a reason"

"There is a reason for everything"

"Embrace change rather than complain about the inevitable"

 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

This is the piece of scripture I've been holding onto for the past couple of weeks.

I don't know who reads this, and those of who do, actually know me..but I am your average ordinary 23 year old girl.... minus the fact that I've been married for almost 2 years and I have a 15 month old son, lived apart from my husband more than together, and have watched the Marine Corps turn my "fairy tale" romance into a long distance, heart wrenching,anxiety filled relationship. (Ok, so Im not "too average")

 (Hey, it was worth it..my husband is awesome)

What I'm trying to get at is that my life is not what I planned. At all. & I CAN'T be more thankful.

I planned on marrying Patrick, just not when I did.. I planned on having a baby...just not when I did... I planned on finishing nursing school..ohh wait... (one day,one day) And Goodness greif I never thought in a million years I would follow my other half 4000 miles across the US to Hawaii, I'm SUCH a homebody.

Anyway, what I'm getting at is that OUR timing isn't ours at all. Not even close.

About 2 weeks before Christmas I started feeling off, really crappy actually.. and one day I woke up, almost passed out and realized I maaay need to seak medical attention, so I went in to our clinic here on Kbay and had a battery of tests done, which they had decided it seems my IUD (my birth control) may have embedded itself into my body. Cool IUD, cool.

Long story short, I was pregnant with our 2nd child.

(If you didn't know this, and are upset...please don't be...We were keeping it quiet until I was further along)

Patrick's reaction was priceless. (Just for the record, mine was worse than his)

About 2 weeks ago I was diagnosed with a subchorionic hemmorage and they pretty much told me that it looked like I was going to miscarry (My IUD posed huge complications as well) & it's inevitably what happend, I had surgery on Jan. 25th with my wonderful hubs by my side (thank you marine corps!) and have been recovering ever since.  

 I've really struggled with trying to pray for understanding...but the Lord gave me peace instead... I've also realized I dont need to understand, I just need to FULLY TRUST his plan for my life and our family & tha's what I'm doing, and no it hasn't been easy...but I know that He has such great things lined up for us that it doesn't need to be.

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace." Ecc. 3:1-8

love, kels.



Back to updating Daddy!

Quick Recap:
The Sparks & MIL came to visit for Thanksgiving
My cousin Jessica just left after a 2 week visit to Oahu.

Yay for family! (These were important, didn't want to leave them out)

Im not sure how many people read this from "back home" but this blog started out updating Daddy on Aiden's life...welp, looks like were back to keeping him in the loop! So if your just reading to keep up us here in Hawaii, Apologies if I bore you! :)

1/14/12

Heather, Amy & I took the kiddos to the zoo today!

all of our kiddos

Aiden & Audri petting the goats!

Keegan & Levi :)

                                                             Can ya tell who missed nap time?

We had alot of fun :) It wasn't nearly as hott as the last time we went-which was great because aiden refused to keep his hat on.. He also lost his bink somewhere in the zoo (I know I know, well get rid of them soon) Just wanted to keep ya updated love. :)

Miss you & I love you!

Kels.



The dreaded work up.

Happy New year!

First, I admit..I totally failed with my blog these last couple of months, but I think i've been soaking up all the husband time I could - because before I knew it he left...(sigh)

He left for PTA today, which basically means he is training on the big island (Hawaii) for a couple of weeks. For those of you who forget (usually just the grandparents ;) ) we are stationed on Oahu on Marine Corp Base Hawaii 

Just wanted to throw that in there for reference, hey..I'm a visual learner..dont hate.

Anyhoo - once PTA is over then there comes CAX, which is in California (I dont think Ill post a map for this one) and that one is 6 weeks.. and then theres the big D. Gross




Wife speaking, I'm not ready for this deployment. Marine wife speaking - I've got this.

Despite what some Marine wifes say.. It's always hard to watch my husband leave, you think it would get easier with time, but Patrick and I have been together 5 years this summer and I love him more & more everyday... (well, 6 out 7, haha) so it makes sense to me that its still hard...and besides the past year it's been long distance, so I guess it makes sense - I'm no longer "used" to being apart.


I'll suck it up in a day or 2, right now I still have my cousin here to keep me company! (and my doll faced Aiden bug) but right now, I just needed to ramble!

Oh, and ill throw this picture on here to make this less sad.

all for now,
 Kels

The Blob.

Just a quick video :)

We're pretty cool parents.

Updates on The Webbers!

Where on earth did time go. The last time I updated this was for Aid's birthday which was roughly a month and a half ago. (Ill have a 14 month old around Christmas time, I dont know which one is harder to believe?)

Patrick

• December 2nd- Patrick took oath & made it official that he will be spending another 4 years in the Marine Corps :) Which has come to mean we will be spending another 2 years in Hawaii (not what we were hoping for, but the good Lord won't let us down!) & then he can hopefully PCS to the east coast!

Personally it's very bittersweet..for me anyway. I really miss my family, Kendall & Noah mostly..simply because I can't directly call them.

Kelsey (yep, thats 3rd person right there)

• I applied part time to the CDC on base, prayers I hear back about that soon..I would LOVE this job!
• Im meeting with a counsoler next week to see what I can do to get my degree back on track!
• Thats about it.
• Im lame

Aiden

• full time walker
• babbles allllll the time
• Cutting his top teeth!

thats it for now. I need to shower before crazy kid wakes up!

Aiden Patrick's 1st year update.

Aiden's 1 year check up : 24.5 lbs, 31 inches long.

(She doubled checked the paper to make sure it definately was 1)

Watch me grow.

Aiden's favorites:                                                         

• pulling bowls out of the cabinets
• pulling all the toliet paper of the roll
• Cheese
• Swimming
• bathtime
• getting chased by mommy and daddy

To do list:

• Take first steps
• Climb stairs
• Eat table foods
• Cut 2 bottom teeth
• Take steps on his own
• Learn to kiss
• Says 100 forms of Daddy
• Walk independantly all the time
• Run

I cant believe my baby is 1.

Im going to go cry again.

Love you aid. <3

Military Man's Promise

 (I jacked this Heather's facebook...kudos!)

I cannot promise you every night of my life. I cannot promise to be beside you for every difficult moment, every trial, and every hardship. In truth..., I can promise you that I will not be with you for most. I will leave you at inconvenient times. Any special date to us may be tainted with the anniversary of the death of one of my friends. I will ask you to take over whatever life we have built together for months and years at a time. And will then crash back into that life that you have used your sweat, your tears and your heartache to keep together, and try to take it back as I knew it before.

I will shut you out at times because it will be the best way for me to hold it together at that moment. I will lie to you. I will tell you I don't know things when I do. I will not always tell you where I am going, when I will be back, or who I am with. I may not call you for weeks and months and you will not be able to call me. You will ask questions that I won't answer. You will know answers to questions that you will hope you never need. I will share things with my brothers that you will never understand. They will know things about me that you never will. They will be a support to me in some things that you cannot be. I will miss birthdays. I will miss anniversaries. I may need time to process things that seem natural to everyone else. It will seem that someone - or something - will always take precedence over you. You may lose me long before you ever thought possible.

I will uproot you and ask you to re-establish our family anywhere in the world, in any season, at any time - over and over again. Sand and mud will be tracked through your halls from the boots I am too tired to take off. I will leave you when you beg me not to. I will stand at attention while you cry beside me. I will not turn my head and I will walk away. I will knowingly break your heart. And I will do it again - and again. Whenever you want to call and you have no number to dial, I will be wanting to do the same. I will protect everything that we have created together with every fiber of my being while you do the same back at home. I will honor you in everything - every moment that we are apart and every moment that I am with you. I will fight harder and push further knowing that I do so for you. And I will carry you with me in everything, until my sandy boots once again sit just inside our door.