God is my strength.

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
    my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped.
    Therefore my heart rejoices,
    and I praise Him with my song-Psalm 28:7

I dont know how I could have physically,mentally or emotionally made it through the past couple of days without Christ. I had a teacher, Mrs. Stratton, in high school that used to tell me God put his strongest trees in the storm, that way when all the rain,winds and thunder was over.. the strongest trees would be standing strong. I tend to play that over and over and over in my head when times get tough. Thank you Mrs.Stratton!

A couple of days ago I watched my 7 week old son have a seizure. I can honestly say it was the scariest moment of my entire life. I was home alone, studying for finals & he had his arms up, and was grunting, so I went to pick him up and his arms and legs were jerking.. and his eyes were to the side.. and I knew it was a seizure, If I didn't have the medical expierence and education I do, im not sure I would've known.. but I def. would have known something was wrong. My first though was don't let him aspirate, my 2nd was where is my phone, my 3rd was stop holding your breath bc if you pass out.. you can't help him.

   (let me clarify, I wanted my phone to call 911... not just to check my facebook haha)

The paramedics showed up pretty quick, & I was surprised to see a guy I went to high school with...major Kudos to Josh for keeping me calm, your great at your job. Its def. your calling! By the time paramedics got there he was textbook postictal. (well, Im not sure about infants...) but he was lethargic, clammy, pale...

He started to pink up when he got to the ED... All I can say about the ED staff at Roanoke memorial is that they are amazing.. The nurses and doctors were great at keeping me calm, and the care he recieved was absolutely outstanding.

...I debated on sending a red cross message to Patrick, on one hand- Aiden is his son, he needed to know (and I knew he'd be pretty mad if I didnt) and on the other- I had a pretty good idea of how it would effect him, Did I really want to do that to him when he has no control of the situation? Ultimately it was my decesion to make,and I went ahead with the process. He called early the next morning and I got to talk to him for a while.. It broke my heart to hear him sad, but we talked a couple more times over the course of the next couple days and he eventually took my word that Aiden had a clean bill of health and he sounded so much better after that, we actually were joking around with eachother :)

I don't think I slept more than 3 hours the entire time he was in the hospital, I couldn't take my eyes off of him in fear something would happen....my teeny tiny boy was sick, and I could do nothing, talk about feeling helpless....Over the next couple days, he had bloodwork,an EEG, MRI, antibiotics and antivirals. On first glance of the MRI it looked as if he had an enlarged blood vessel and they said that they weren't sure what caused the seizure, but on further review they declared it an "old bleed, probably d/t birth trauma" and they were pretty sure thats what caused the seizure, but there was no way to be sure.. but they were confident it should be an isolated event.

.."it should be an isolated event" thats the best sentence I've heard in a long time.

Aiden Patrick was a champ through the entire hospital stay, He def. has his Daddy's bravery and strength. 

Thank you to EVERYONE for the support, prayers, & encouragement.. It really helped keep my head up!

Props to Sarah for staying the night and trying to force me to sleep, bringing me pineapples, and doing my hair and makeup when she was running late for work ;)

I love those cheeks.

Sweet little Aidenbug

             It takes a couple seconds to get to the smiles, but its worth the watch :) this was during his EEG

Dear Husband,

   Mike Corrado's song, On my watch tonight's lyrics say "You take care of the love and Ill take care of the hate" Thats exatly what we have to do. Ill take care of our little man; and you keep your head up and stay strong over there. I know you wouldve been here with us if you could, but I pray that we will never face that situation of Aiden being in the hospital again. I pride myself on being a strong person.. but that was flirting with my breaking point. You would have been so so proud of him, once again- I was worse than he was haha. He kept his cool though ;) Ya know, flirting with nurses..being a stud. He's more like you than we thought ;) I love you so very much and I can't wait for the next 6 months to flyyyyyyyy by.

Lovealways,

    Your Wife.