Sending our love to California!

Patrick left for Cax/Emv yesterday for 6 weeks or so, so for now it's just Aiden and I!


Hey honey!
 Today wasn't crazy, just an regular ole' Aiden & mommy day. I pretty much straightned the downstairs up minus the kitchen table, It gives me anxiety looking at it haha. But aiden DID sleep until 8:30 so that was super awesome!

We went to the doctor this after noon, he was super grumpy for the entire appt. (But then again, I did have to wake him up from his nap to leave) I think the last time they looked in his ears it scarred him for life because as soon as she pulled out the scope he got mad and starting whimpering, poor bug.

We ran to the commisary later on because I realized we we're running low on Diapers and milk, you know - an essential in the Webber household. But we came home and ate dinner, then we walked down to the playground near our mailboxes, he had SO much fun. He was constantly screeching,laughing and happy feeting. He even liked the slides this time! (I went down the slide with at first, impressive..I know) once we were there for about 30 minutes I realized it was bathtime so we headed home, of course Aiden sat down and refused to move. So that was fun.

Bathtime,storytime, bedtime. You know the routine.

I missed you today, I miss you every minute. Already started my countdown.

I love you so much, Bug does too!

All over the place.

My.mind.is.everywhere.

blah.

I don't even know where to start this blog, beside the fact that I've been blah the past couple of months, let me preface this with - I know the Lord has a plan for my life, & my families - but I am human and of course I get down sometimes.

I think my whole funk started when I miscarried, It's been exactly 2 months and 1 day and I think about it daily. I don't know if thats normal, but its true. I got so excited and used to the thought of having 2 kiddos and Aiden having a younger sibling close in age & all that changed. (somedays, I'm not good with change) I know we can try and have another, but thats not what this is about.

Im rambling.

Anyhoo, I think I need to make a serious list of goals & a timeline in which I would like to get those goals accomplished, I have always functioned best when theres 50 things on my plate & I'm pushing myself (yes, I know this might seem strange) Don't get me wrong, I love the days where Aid & I can stay in our jammies and have an mickey mouse clubhouse marathon while coloring and jamming to Elmo's greatest hits. and most days, I love being home with him. (please don't take that as I dont like being with my son, pat & I are very fortunate to be financially comfortable at our ages, which doesn't make working a nessicity) but I would love to get back in school & finish my degree.

 Goals.

1.Get back into Nursing school

2.Get Aiden into Daycare (eeeeek)

3.Get a job

4.Get into a excersize routine



5.Have another baby

^some of those are a tad contradicting, but hey, we'll cross that bridge when we get there haha.

I basically needed to get some stuff off my chest. whew.