All over the place.

My.mind.is.everywhere.

blah.

I don't even know where to start this blog, beside the fact that I've been blah the past couple of months, let me preface this with - I know the Lord has a plan for my life, & my families - but I am human and of course I get down sometimes.

I think my whole funk started when I miscarried, It's been exactly 2 months and 1 day and I think about it daily. I don't know if thats normal, but its true. I got so excited and used to the thought of having 2 kiddos and Aiden having a younger sibling close in age & all that changed. (somedays, I'm not good with change) I know we can try and have another, but thats not what this is about.

Im rambling.

Anyhoo, I think I need to make a serious list of goals & a timeline in which I would like to get those goals accomplished, I have always functioned best when theres 50 things on my plate & I'm pushing myself (yes, I know this might seem strange) Don't get me wrong, I love the days where Aid & I can stay in our jammies and have an mickey mouse clubhouse marathon while coloring and jamming to Elmo's greatest hits. and most days, I love being home with him. (please don't take that as I dont like being with my son, pat & I are very fortunate to be financially comfortable at our ages, which doesn't make working a nessicity) but I would love to get back in school & finish my degree.

 Goals.

1.Get back into Nursing school

2.Get Aiden into Daycare (eeeeek)

3.Get a job

4.Get into a excersize routine



5.Have another baby

^some of those are a tad contradicting, but hey, we'll cross that bridge when we get there haha.

I basically needed to get some stuff off my chest. whew.